Change is harder than it looks..

Hello there,

I hadn't planned on creating a blog but recently I've felt the need for a place to talk about things that really do matter to me. An open space to share the things that I'm dealing with and others might be feeling.

20 something and not a clue really sums up life, being a grown up is hard! Last month I turned 25, so I really have said goodbye to the free-wheeling part of my life. The time has come to actually be an adult. Last week I graduated from university. So, gone are the nights out with no care of the consequences, the lovely student loan payments that could always be counted on and the strict timetable no-one actually attended.

Now I am surrounded by days filled with understanding bills and taxes. Time spent hunting for the dream job that you studied so hard for, that you expected would be ready and waiting when you donned that cap and gown.

But it seems that all that change isn't so easy. I miss university. I miss all the amazing friends I made. The days without worry seem so far away. 

I had my dream job but lost it through no fault of my own. The date rent is due glows like a beacon in front of my eyes. 

The pressure to be perfect and live up to the expectations painted on you by yourself and society is suffocating. 

And I know these are things that other people feel, but its not something we're talking about. We hide the anxiety and smile. 

Thrust into a part of life, no-one actually warned us about.

Luckily for me I have an amazing support system, but even with family just at the end of the phone, the help wont come if you don't talk about what you're going through. 

This time in our lives is not as simple for everyone, it's a big transition. 

Talk.

 To someone.

 Listen, someone may need you.